What Is My Purpose?

What is my purpose? What is purpose? There are many ways you can describe purpose. It is the reason for which something is done, made, or used. It’s an intended or desired result; like an end, an aim, or a goal. Maybe it is the subject at hand or the point at issue. Purpose can seemingly mean many things. Growing up, I always knew it as, not doing something on accident. Depending on what was done on purpose and not on accident was usually not the right thing like, drawing on the walls. You’re more than likely not supposed to do it but do it anyways. You can’t very well say it was an accident. The end result, you would probably be sent to your room or put in a time out. It would all depend on your parents’ form of punishment. However, this time, purposes will more than likely end with a good result. You can almost describe it the same way as the other purpose (not accident). Purpose means you mean to do something while this purpose means you are meant to do something. You can see how they both tie together. I see purpose as a future explanation to what you want in life. It can be almost anything. It can range from your deepest desires to your biggest dreams. It’s whatever you want to accomplish in your life.

 I have had a pretty good idea on what I believe my purpose to be for quite a while. It’s still growing and advancing everyday as I learn more and obtain new ideas. My hope is to become an engineer. It’s been that way since my freshmen year. To be more specific, I hope to be an electronic/computer engineer. I have a great interest in electronics and how they work. I grew up taking all kinds apart whenever I got the chance. Unfortunately, I couldn't always put them back together.  Hopefully, towards my future, that won’t be a problem. I've been getting better and can even take some apart if it’s broken and be able to fix it. It’s something to look forward to in my future. When something breaks, instead of replacing it or having it repaired, I can do it myself.

With all of these ideas in mind of what I want, I can’t really just take it. I need to make a plan. I need to know where I’ll go, what I’ll do, and how I will accomplish it. It’s not just I want this and its handed to you. You have to be able to work towards it and earn it. College is the best way to do that and is how I chose to go through with it. Now, there are a lot of colleges out there. I can easily narrow it down though to what is going to help me for my future. However, looking at only the engineering schools, there is still a lot. Luckily, I can narrow it down even more. To simply put it, I want to stay in Nebraska. I don’t want to leave home quite yet. I want to be close so I have somewhere to go on breaks or the holidays and of course during the summer. Now, we got colleges in Nebraska that offer engineering. The list just dropped. Now I can decide. I have decided the route of not only one college, but two. As of now, that is my plan, but sometimes life happens and you have to change. Wither it be the better for or for others. We can’t control our future. We can only work towards what we hope it to be.

As of now, I am going to the University of Nebraska at Kearney then the University of Nebraska at Omaha. The reason I have chosen two is for more experience. I have been contacted by many colleges asking if I will be coming to their college. Before, I always told them no, I’m going to UNO because they offer engineering. Expecting to be told that they understood and to wish me luck, they had a different approach. They explained to me that I could go to their college where they would offer me pre engineering along with another major of my choice that would tie along with my engineering plans. This way I would go to a college that didn’t offer engineering for two years and obtain an associate’s degree of pre engineering. While obtaining that I would also be getting a major in a different subject such as mathematics or physics. Once I was done, I would then transfer to UNO and finish off getting my complete degree in electronic/computer engineering. I would have done all of my general education classes before and would be able to just focus on my engineering. However, I still needed to choose which college I would go to first for pre engineering. There were a lot of choices, but in the end I chose UNK. It’s a nice college and it’s close to home just like I want it to be. Plus, everything would transfer easier due to it being another university.

I have my plans set for now. I know what I hope and want to do. All that’s left is to go for it. My purpose is only what I can make of it. Once I’m out of college, it will be different. I have my ideas and hopes on what I want to accomplish. I want to be able to build and design my own electronics and even do some work in robotics. I think it would be pretty awesome to be able to build a robot just because. However, the world is changing every day and those ideas could change in the future. The world is vast and not, it’s only a matter of waiting.

Where Am I?

Where am I? Well, I am approximately forty degrees fifty-two minutes one second north and ninety-eight degrees zero minutes fifty seconds west. To be a little more exact I am in the publication center of the Aurora high school. But, that’s not quite the right answer to this question. If it was, the answer would be infinite. You’re always somewhere different. Every step you take and every move you make leads you to a new position. You can be at home, school, work, mall, store, or just wondering around with friends. Mr. Sodomka would always be saying during our marching band season when we are practicing for a parade march: “Every step you take, you have a new audience.” In a way, it goes along with everything else. Because, no matter where you are and what you’re doing, you are constantly somewhere new. You can go from one state of mind at being in a place of peace to being in a place of stress and judgment. It’s everywhere you go.

When I think, “where am I”, I also tend to think, “Where am I heading” and “where do I want to go?” You can think that you are somewhere for so long, but eventually you’re going to have to move forward. Right now, I believe that I am where I want to be. I’m in my senior year at a great high school in a small town where I don’t have to fret about getting lost. I have a nice job and some great friends too. My grades are good and I have no worries of my coming senior year. Now I’m just in that place of “where am I heading?” I know where I want to head, but there is always the question: “Is it the right direction?” You’re always told that lots of people change their mind when they're in college; it’s just a part of figuring your life out. I want to be right the first time though. I don’t want to have to quit what I’m doing to do something different, just so I can start over. Luckily, I still have time to think about it. I’m in that point of school where the rest is just smooth sailing. I've gotten through the treacherous storms of my first three years of high school, now I can put the sail up and just float for while. When I graduate, I can drop anchor, hold still for awhile, and just rest.

The beginning of college will come soon, the sail will come down, and the ores will come out. I’ll be rested and ready to start my new voyage. I want to be an engineer in my future. More specifically, I want to be an electronic/computer engineer. My plan is to stay in Nebraska for college. I want to be able to be close to home so I can still visit now and then. I want to go to UNK and get a pre engineering degree along with a major in mathematics. After that, I will transfer to UNO where I will carry out the rest of my engineering degree. From now until then, I will have to steer my boat and keep it from going off track. However, once college is done, the sail can come up once again. I’ll have my degree and my optimal plans for a future. However, after that, I will go where ever the wind (hypothetically speaking) takes me. Whether it’s out of Nebraska or not, I’ll go there.

Where am I? I’m still right here, forty degrees fifty-two minutes one second north and ninety-eight degrees zero minutes fifty seconds west. Give or take a few seconds. Still in the same spot, same school, same city, and same state. I haven’t moved much. Now I’m just at the end of this essay, closer to the bottom of the page than I was when I started. My plans haven’t changed, and I am still on track. My future still lies ahead of me. New places and new faces lie ahead. Again, like Mr. Sodomka always says: “Every step you take, you have a new audience.” I also think that with every turn you make, creates a new journey. I always use to think how where you go is like a road. There are a lot of different curves and obstacles along the road you have to avoid. When there is a fork in the road you have to choose which path to take. Hopefully, by the time you get there, you’ll know which path to take.

Who am I?

Who am I? I am Edmund, I am Eddy, I am Ed, and I am Guy. But, to most everybody, I am better known as just Guy. I get asked about it a lot too. People ask me: “Is your name really Guy?” or “Why is your name Guy?” Usually I just say no and explain why. However, I get asked it so much I just want to say yes. That wouldn’t work out to will though. They would figure it out eventually. So I just say no and give the story. When I was born, my dad wanted me to be Edmund George Knudsen the fifth. But, my mom was like “NO!” She did not want another George. They thought about it and decided to go with my uncle’s name: Guy. Therefore, Guy did not come from nowhere. It actually was legit. Anyways, they decided to keep Edmund and just make it my middle name. But, when they said it, “Guy Edmund Knudsen,” it didn’t have a good ring to it. So they switched it to Edmund Guy Knudsen realizing it sounded better. Then, they still decided to call me Guy. Even though, they made it my middle name. Which makes completely no since. I mean if you’re going to call me Edmund Guy, call me Edmund. Now look what I have to deal with. Oh well, that’s that story for you.

Who am I? I am the type of person who hates to fail. Not necessarily grades but failing in general. One of the reasons is because I know I can do better. Sometimes you just get so caught up in what’s going around you, you get distracted and just forget everything. Then, in some cases I’m just lazy. Not much of an excuse, but it happens. Partly because I have ADHD: (attention death hyperactive disorder). I am distracted very easily. I know sometimes I’ll find myself just staring off into nowhere and then realize I was working on a test or doing homework and just spaced out. I’m a hard worker and I don’t quit. I feel when you quit, you’re giving up on all the possibilities that could have been. Then you find yourself thinking, “what if?” I’m very organized too. I hate not knowing where something is. You get that feeling of “am I forgetting something” and then you just waste time trying to figure out what it is. Half the time is nothing and your mind is just messing with you. I’m quite funny, or comical, or however you want to put it. At least people tell me that I am. I think I can agree with them though. I find when you’re asked to describe yourself it’s hard. I think it’s weird because you don’t want them to think of you as modest or it’s just all about you.

I’m quite curious. I’m very curious in fact. I really like everything and how it works. From small to big it’s all interesting. I use to take all sorts of things apart when I was little. Like radios, toys, and just about anything. Unfortunately, I couldn’t always put it back together. So, eventually I stopped. Otherwise I would have run out of toys. That would be devastating. I like puzzles too, all kinds of puzzles. Pretty much anything that could be solved. I especially like Rubik’s cubes. I have tons of them from normal ones to weirdly shaped ones. I can solve all of them except for one. It is my goal to solve it before I get anymore Rubik’s cubes and to have it solved before I graduate. I believe I can hopefully do it. You could say Rubik’s cubes are my hobby. I quite enjoy them. I also play video games. I play zombies a lot with my friends. Just in case you took that the wrong way. That is a video game, not a game like children play.

I’m very good at math. It is my strongest subject and always has been. I just understand a lot. It’s not like other subjects with all their different complications. It’s just numbers and story problems. I think it makes it easier to comprehend that way. Coming in second would be English. It seems pretty easy if you know what you’re doing. After that would be science. Science is usually my favorite subject. You get to do a lot of cool labs. It makes it a lot of fun. Coming in last would be social studies. We just simply don’t agree at all. Not much more to say there about that. Luckily I should never have to take it again, even in college.

I want to be an engineer. So basically, I just need math and science. I got that down pretty well, except for physics. More specifically I want to be an Electronic/Computer Engineer. In my future, I want to be able to build all sorts of electronics, be able to fix them, and be able to even design my own. I have two plans for college. One of them is to go to the University of Nebraska at Omaha and obtain my masters degree there. The other is to go to the University of Nebraska at Kearny, get a major in mathematics and a pre engineering degree. After that I will transfer to UNO and finish my engineering degree. Sounds like a lot of fun.

Again, I ask the question who am I? Again I answer, I am Guy. I’m a fun, interesting, comical, energetic, curious, smart, distracted, distracting, awesome, outgoing, hardworking, puzzle solving, problem solving, responsible, organized, and caring type of person. I’m sure there’s more but lazy is probably one of them. I always try to keep a positive attitude and just be happy. I like hanging out with my friends, watching movies, and just having a good time. Try to make the best out of life. I want to make my life more like toilet paper… long and useful.